Hi friends! This is really big!! The third largest pop station in the US featured me on their site! =) Please click the link and "like" and share! 

http://www.933flz.com/pages/kiddleow.html?feed=330624&article=11657188
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Pepsi Introduces Tate Stevens' "Holler if You're With Me" (Official Video)

I'm in there somewhere =)

Jef Holm spotted in neon Neff gear at Electric Run

Jef Holm spotted in neon Neff gear at Electric Run

Kandy Magazine cover

Go buy your copy at www.kandymagazine.com now =)

Jarvis, my IRobot Roomba

I'm in love!!! I am having an affair with Romba! He cleans my floors! Seriously though everyone should have one.. It cleans everyday on a timer, knows when it's finished and docks itself back up to charge. These new obsidian hardwood floors are impossible to keep clean but Roomba had changed all that for me =)) have named him Jarvis

Kona Tanning Company

For any of y'all that are starting to lose that Summer glow, Katie at Kona Tanning Company is the answer! She will leave you bronzy and beautiful!  Visit http://www.konatanningcompany.com to make an appt today. 

The Big Picture

All outcomes are the sum of a culmination of past decisions and circumstances. There is not one person or choice to blame or thank for where you ended up in life. You are looking too closely, take a step back, open your eyes and really see this life; as a whole, beautiful photograph. When you allow yourself to get too close to the picture, the pixels begin to blur and distract you from what you should enjoy every second of. One little mistake or poor choice is just a pixel in an entire beautiful photograph. This life is short and we’re not guaranteed another. Remember to take a step back everyday and see things as a whole.. You’re whole wonderful life.

 #LoveLife

darkness and dreams

sometimes I get so deeply desperately depressed I know I'll never get out of it.. i always do. it's just so heavy a weight of black all over my body from crown to achilles. it eats me alive and I lose my appetite completely. no one understands yet everyone does. it doesn't even make sense to me how could it to you? i get a sick pleasure from how deep i drown in it, like a runners high.. i just want to be so much and i know i am supposed to but then I sabotage myself in one way or another. I have someone else inside me who hates everything and wants me to be just as angry. i fight her. i don't want to be this way i want to be happy and sing but I'm afraid you won't like the scratchy sound of my voice. I awoke this morning in tears from a silly dream but it hurt so badly. people truly hated me and wanted me out of their community i slept in a bush alone and people threw things at me and called me names. my subconscious must know something I don't =(

Bridal Flowers giveaway!!!

So I am getting married!!! I know I haven't really told anyone so if you are reading this and fell off your chair with shock, surprise!! haha so I have entered a flower giveaway (which we all know costs a pretty penny) here are the details of the contest..

http://bridalgownblog.blogspot.com/2010/11/orange-county-brides-its-very-special.html

wish me luck!!!

Chocolate covered strawberry cupcakes

Reunited and it feels so goood!! =P I missed baking cupcakes this was fun and simple! For my good friend Dee's Birthday

The Master Cleanse..

So I have decided to undertake a cleanse of my body. I have gained weight over the last month due to constant shoving of french fries into my piehole! It's gross and I need to stop this self-sabotage. I am the queen of it by the way. I just LOVE bad food. Why can't I love a piece of broccoli as much as I do mashed potatoes?? oh well. I'm thinking I will start Monday, I was going to go for tomorrow but it's unrealistic. Another one of my faults; I have completely unrealistic expectations of the world and people in it. Even of myself. I live in a fairy tale land.. or at least I attempt to. But what's so wrong with preteding things are perfect to make me feel better? you tell me...

Blogging again..

but I decided I like this whole blogging thing. I have many opinions that cease to become verbalized. So here we are again. I am starting school soon and need to freshen up my writing skills. What better way to do it than blogging! anyhow..

Today: I woke up to a ticket on my rental vehicle stating that my rear end was too far from the curb. I think the city comes by every single morning to make money off my dumb ass. The day got better as it went on, pretty boring but at least no more bad news. I went to the gym even though I felt like shite and when I showered off after the costco-sized-conditioner fell on my foot and actually knocked my off my feet. it was excruciating to say the least. So now that is swelling as I write. Good times. Tomorrow can only be better right?? let's hope!

TGIO

Thank God it's Over! Presentations I mean... what a relief. AND that the essay wasn't due today was a miracle! Things are looking up.. until this weekend; the procrastination stops there!

I'm freaking out man!

When it rains it pours should be the qoute of my life! Okay, that's a bit dramatic. Dang when the end of the semester comes along I get so bogged down. I always tell myself that I am not going to procrastinate this year, but every year it's the same story. Well wish me luck on 2 research reports and 5 essays. Looks like I'll be up til 2am many nights to come.. YESSS!!!

blog post #12

Blume, Judy. "Personal e-mail." E-mail to the author. 8 Nov. 08.

"Challenged in LA Unified." P.A.B.B.I.S. 11 Nov. 08 http://pabbis.com.

Jones, Stanley. "Finding Themes in Television Comedies." Modern Television 11 (1999): 37-52.

Twain, Mark. The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn. New York, NY: Anchor Books, 1984

#11 Just call me Cupcake!

So I make cupcakes at least twice a week. My boyfriend Ryan eats most of them.. So tomorrow I am attempting the venture of baking a cake for my brother's birthday party. A two layer cake consisting of a red velvet bottom, chocolate frosting center, chocolate chunk top layer and vanilla frosting. My brother has played golf with my dad since he was 3 or 4 so I am making it a golf cake. I found an amazing cake decoration store and bought a little golfer with a cart and clubs and a flag for the hole. So I am going to make a sand trap, lake, green and a road for the gold cart! I am pretty excited! If anyone has any tips for good textures let me know!!!

2008

20 Questions about 2008

1. What is the most important life lesson that you learned in 2008?
to just be happy. take a deep breath and everything will be alright
2. What song or movie will always remind you of 2008?
Anything by Rebelution
3. What was the best thing you bought in 2008?
My Macbook
4. Did you suffer an illness or injury in 2008?
I am really clumsy so probably lol
5. Where did most of your money go in 2008?
To the mortgage where else?
6. What did you do in 2008 that you had never done before?

7. Quote a song lyric or movie line that best sums up your life in 2008.
"She has trouble acting normal when she's nervous" Counting Crows
8. Now that 2008 is almost over, which of your New Year's resolutions did you keep?
To be nicer to my boyfriend
9. Name your biggest achievement for 2008.
making cover of a magazine i guess
10. What do you wish you had done less of in 2008?
stress and worry
11. What dates from 2008 will remain etched in your memory?
?
12. What was your biggest disappointment in 2008?
The economy
13. Compared to 2007, are you richer/poorer, happier/sadder, sicker/healthier in 2008?
even, happier and healthier hey things are looking up
14. What political issue bothered you most?
i have a lot of problems with bias, I think everything should be straight forward and honest
15. If you could rewind and redo one event from 2008, what would it be?
pray that I could undo and event
16. What do you wish you had done more of in 2008?
I wish we would have went camping and hiking
17. What would you like to have in 2009 that you didn't have in 2008?

18. Name one habit that you developed and one that you broke in 2008.
I stopped biting my nails and cuticles
19. Name something that you discovered about yourself in 2008.
I can't do everything on my own. Sometimes I need help
20. What one thing would have made your life infinitely easier in 2008?
Money so I could just go to school and focus not go to work and stress all day

rap music and such..blog post #8

Blog about the ways in which popular music can be "dangerous" to society. Do you see the influence of singers and songwriters as positive or negative? Why?
Oddly enough I just had this conversation with a coworker who has a 5 year old daughter. She was listening to her ipod and he randomly took one of the ear buds out and took a listen just to see what she was listening to. Well it turns out it was a rap song basically degrading women and telling them to dress sleazier and to act like "ho's" Needless to say he was fairly upset and went immediately to his wife who listens to rap music and downloads the songs for their daughter. She told him that she didn't know that's what the song had said and then deleted the song from the ipod. I have noticed in increase in sexual activity and behavior among much younger children. Also girls are wearing make-up and dressing more provocatively. My little brother is a sophomore in hs and he told me girls are having sex very young.I wouldn't say it's all the music's fault but I definitely feel it plays a large role.

War, what is it good for? absolutely nothing!

Do you agree or disagree with Aeschylus' statement that "in war, truth is the first casualty"? How does his statement relate to the issue of censorship?
I agree.. I wouldn't go as far as to say that if people saw the true tragedy of war, war would cease to exist, and the reason for this is people already know how ugly war is. That is why it is called war. Maybe people in society rationalize things so much so that they think war is all flowers and hugs. But for me and most people I know, we know how traumatic and terrible war is. People don't want to see it. I don't think these photos should be shown on national television because it forces people to see it when they don't want to. But I also don't think it should be censored. I feel that there should be websites with images such as these so people who want to view them can and people who don't, don't have to. Also the families of the deceased in the photos smust give permission for the world to see. Otherwise it is unethical.

co-worker troubles..

If you could convince one person to change his or her mind about something, whom would you choose and what would you try to convince that person to see differently?

I think I would convince a woman at my work to leave her alcoholic, abusive husband. He was fired from our company for coming to work drunk all the time and stealing. He then proceeded to live off her measly income for a year and a half, he finally just got a job and she is so proud! (and about to lose her home). I have tried and tried to tell her this situation is hurting her and her son. She "feels bad" because he has a "problem" it's so ridiculous I don't even want to talk to her anymore you know? I feel bad but I have enough troubles of my own to listen to her broken record of a life she has the power to change. Sorry if I sound bitter instead of caring, but this has gone on too long..